why is it that i juz dun seem to understand... ... ...

I juz do not seem to understand anything abt dede's work. Does he feel the same when i was working with shimizu last time? I juz do not understand why is he so tight up with work and can't seem to have juz a day off or to have a sat off? Is construction really that biz, really that tight up with schedules and work and project? Is it only work and meeting deadlines that all engineers care about? Do they ever care or think abt putting themselves in the shoes of their love ones? I know Dede did put himself in the shoes of his love one(s) and he is doing his best to be there for everything. But somehow i juz dun seem to get it... planning a trip to let him unwind and to forget abt work is so difficult. Is taking him away from work and going for a short weekend getaway to relax, a wrong thing to do? Haiz... ("_) Maybe dede felt the same way as me now when i was working with shimizu. But dede nvr complain once, in fact he always have to wait a few hours for me juz to have lunch. poor guy.

but i do wonder why we have been arguing more recently... is it becoz of me??? or the stress that we are facing? stress from work, family, and the 15months away wedding plan... why can't we juz be like before, the times in bne? i long and yearn for those fridays that we used to have. lunch in the city, walk ard the city, buy groceries etc, then head home for dinner. after that off to southbank for unwind time. why can't we have this in sg???

I juz dun seem to understand... ...