Is being together and parting part and parcel of our lives? I am not too sure but yet knows that this is what God has planned for us to experience and to prepare us for eternity with Him.

Yes, it has been a very tough time for the past few days of my life and honestly, the day which i have feared the most and have been praying not to come to past, has finally surfaced right before me and hit me like mighty wind. Breaking me from every aspect. The day has brought me all the way down to the darkest valley and walked (still walking) thru the shadows of death. But i am sure that when I looked back behind me, there will only be 2 sets of footprints. 1 set belongs to dear and another belongs to Jesus. Both will be with me, carrying me thru this dark valley. Even though i do not deny that this is the worst time of my life and even to a certain extend, the worst year ever, but i still believe that this is what God wants me to go thru to emerge to be a better person. Those who has gone thru the fire will emerge as stronger and better vessal. Besides all these, things still got to go on and the world still is revolving every single second. I just pray for the supernatural strength to come upon me and dear to continue this walk. Please keep us in prayers.

Despite all the happenings, planning and in fact more plannings have to be done for the wedding. We have to come up with alternative plans and in fact, we are rushing against time. Oh Lord, gives us the discernment and the wisdom to make the right choice.

I do not know what really is in store for me to discovering and to react to it, but all i can say and write now is I am in need of prayers. Life in a mess??? No, definitely not i think. Not messy enough to be call a mess. But definitely not a calm sea either. Maybe I shall just called it a lesson of life. Period.