A Sense of Guilty-ness

never intended things to turn out this way. haiz. guess dede and me are just not meant to be "bad" pple. we juz dun have the heart to blow things up and be the bad guy and after that push things to the back of our head and "pretend" that nothing ever happen. for the outburst that happened yesterday, both of us felt extremely bad. or rather a sense of guilty-ness. we didn't mean to blow our top and we are not trying to convey a message that we want more $$$ out of the whole "biz". we just felt unjustified. haiz... guess in this moment of folly outburst, we have caused an atmosphere of stress, or rather an increase of the stress level that is already in existence. bebe nvr seems to be doing the right thing always. always losing her temper when she should have juz hold back and swallow it since she has already come so far into the situation. it's all bebe's fault. :( Right now, i juz pray that the wedding will juz go on as per normal and things between us and the couple will not be strained. i sent them smses last night to assure them that the epsiode is over and things are back to normal. it's juz my evil twin in action yesterday. got a msg back from the groom but not from the bride. i guess i must have caused a huge level of stress and sadness in her.... I am sorry....

dede gave me a huge "lecture" and insight last night. he said for the 1st time, i was listening to him quietly and did not react the way i usually did. haha. guess those words really sank into my heart last night. i guess i kind of treasure the friendship that i have with these 2 lovely people and i felt upset that i have hurt them in this way, some more at this period of time.

*pray that things will turn out good*