Exactly 2 more weeks and counting down

Weeks have past since I stopped working and being busy preparing for the big day which is in 2 weeks time. It has been 4 weeks since i stopped working, and many have been asking how is my "tai-tai" life for these 4 weeks. Honestly speaking, I did not have 1 bit of a taste of a life of a tai tai. So what have I been doing??? For the 1st 2 weeks, if you have read our earlier entries, I have been super busy with the new house. Scrubbing, mopping, cleaning, wipping, re-arranging, waiting for deliveries, waiting for contractors to come and touch up etc etc etc. And of coz, not forgetting packing and unpacking and shifting. Those 2 weeks are worse than me having to work OTs every night during payroll times in my 1st coy, worse than standing whole day long at career fairs and definitely worse than peak recruiting period. I can even said that for that 2 weeks, I have kind of developed PMB (pre-marital blues) and have been super moody. But the toughest times are over now. So after the 2 weeks, what's next. Well, 3rd week was all about giving out wedding invites, running here and there to buy more furnitures and necessities and of coz the bonus for me was I get to meet up with friends. Most exciting was we have gone for our food tasting with the xiong dis and ah yees. It's was a pleasant experience and we loved it. Not too sure if actual day will be the same but not that I can care now. This whole week will be a R&R week for me. Practically 60% - 75% of the time was spent shopping with mom and dad and sis, getting blessings from them. Oh and not to mention that I have been waking up late everyday. Of coz there are stress moments like planning for the sitting arrangment. That's a big big headache man! But finally last night it has been done. Finalising march in(s) and out songs, champagne pouring song as well, so another item strike off from the list. Getting last min items for decor as well. So rather fulfilling. :) Besides happy things, unexpected disappointments also have come our way. Sms-es of close and good friends saying that they are not able to attend the wedding to share the joy do damper our spirits a bit. I must said I am greatly disappointed! I am getting married and my good friends are not here to support and share the joy with me. It makes me ponder for a min how precious I am to those friends. I am disappointed becoz I have always be there during the most impt moments of their lives and I make an effort, becoz they are my good friends. But now... haiz... nothing much to say except that I know where I really stand in their lives.

Despite all the busy-ness, the poor me hurt my hand/ wrist. It's a terrible experience and even till now I have to eat medicine and put on hand guard and still feel the pain whenever i move my thumb. This is the result of moving and trying to be strong. Happy thing to mention is I finally managed to buy the samsung non camera handphone for darling. It's not easy to get non camera phones nowadays okie. But all thanks to Suyin who works at Samsung now that I am able to get 1 at a great price too. Thanks! I shall said all those that I have gone through these 4 weeks is thru the grace of God, without God's strength, grace and peace, i am not even sure what will I be now. It's not fun to have PMB, and not having anyone understanding the feeling. Many a times I have broke down silently at night and crying out to God for comfort and healing, many a times I have lash it out at darling who is also feeling the tons of stress from the wedding and work. But without God's love and strength, i doubt we both still be in sound mind now. So thank God for everything.

This afternoon (time now is 2am), I will be having our GDL which means it marks the 14 days count down to the big day. Not sure how I should be feeling... excited? nervous? happy? mixed feelings I guess. This is really a mark that I have grown up and no longer the little girl who whins at my parents whenever I am sad, the little princess of the family who has everything prepare nicely for her. I have grown to a lady who's gonna start my own family now and this is not even a single bit same as staying alone in brissyland during my uni days. It's a totally new phrase of life. I wonder how is darling taking it all. There will be new family members added to our individual lives, 2 totally unrelated auntie and uncle which we have to call them mom and dad, siblings and niece and nephews too. I do not know what to expect but I know that I am all prepared and ready to take it all on and to start this life with darling. So pple, do give us your most precious blessings! :)